Existence

My existence will only remain

In the memories we’ve created

My existence fueled by pain

In the torment surrounding our toxicity

My presence reshaping into a thick dust

Flowing through the winds of our truth

Fading into a dream that will never allow us

Desolation filling my veins, pumping into every crevice of my being

Fortifying the hollowness with alcohol and drugs

I find myself more alone than ever before

Sedated in a loop of what was once our love

Captivated by our past; forgetting my future in the remembrance of what could have been

My existence held together by our memory; and will vanish when I’m forgotten